No one said it would be easy losing loved ones, but it's been 2 years for Mother and almost 4 years for Jetta. It doesn't seem any easier. In some ways it just shows my weaknesses more. It's like I am missing a leg and an arm. I don't handle things as well because it seems that all my weak spots are being pressed and prodded. Things about myself that I don't like are more visible now. Did Jetta and Mother really help me that much? I guess they did. I really miss them. There are times when I feel like I might not be ok without them, but I know I will. It is just sometimes the loss seems to hit me especially hard, no rhyme or reason. I am going through one of those times now. I know I am not the only one going through this and everyone handles it differently.
On a lighter note I am looking forward greatly to going to OKC to see my Jo and Judy and Winford. It will be so nice to go to our "regular" place to eat with Jo and Max. Then I will LOVE sitting and visiting with Judy and Winford in a relaxed comfortable environment. I always sleep really well in the room that Mother slept in. Her spirit is still there. No, she's not there but she had enough love to leave some behind. I will eat at Cool Greens, LOVE that place. And like last time I will go get macarons at a tea shop on Western. Hilary wants Mutts, YUM! It will be very good to see old places.
Winter has returned and I sure don't mind. We need the moisture so we don't have a devastating fire season.
Enough of my dreary feelings. Better days coming.
My sister has only been gone one year. The overwhelming pain is easing but I miss her daily. How fortunate we are to have had such wonderful relatives.
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