Day 16: Jetta

In an attempt to deal with my grief, I have been reading books about near death experiences.  Now I did not come up with this idea myself, my other sister suggested it might help us to know where she is.  I went in search of that knowledge if not for sure at least to comfort my earthly mind.  I have now read 3 of these stories/books.  I just finished Proof of Heaven, by Eben Alexander, M.D.  I am highly recommending this book, especially to those of you who might read this and put a lot of stock in the scientific community.  His experience will open your mind to things you thought either you were the only one to think, or how crazy!  But none the less his description is impressive.  Towards the end he  adds a poem that touched my heart and I must share.  This was written by David M. Romano.  Here it is:

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me 

When tomorrow starts without me, 

And I’m not there to see, 

If the sun should rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry

The way you did today, 

While thinking of the many things, 

We didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me, 

As much as I love you, 

And each time you think of me, 

I know you’ll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me, 

Please try to understand, 

That an angel came and called my name, 

And took me by the hand, 

And said my place was ready, 

In heaven far above

And that I’d have to leave behind

All those dearly I love. 

But as I turned to walk away, 

A tear fell from my eye

For all my life, I’d always thought, 

I didn’t want to die.

I had so much to live for, 

So much left yet to do, 

It seemed almost impossible, 

That I was leaving you. 

I thought of all the yesterdays, 

The good ones and the bad, 

The thought of all the love we shared, 

And all the fun we had. 

If I could relive yesterday

Just even for a while, 

I’d say good-bye and kiss you

And maybe see you smile. 

But then I fully realized

That this could never be, 

For emptiness and memories, 

Would take the place of me. 

And when I thought of worldly things

I might miss come tomorrow, 

I thought of you, and when I did

My heart was filled with sorrow. 

But when I walked through heaven’s gates

I felt so much at home

When God looked down and smiled at me, 

From His great golden throne, 

He said, “This is eternity,

And all I’ve promised you.

Today your life on earth is past

But here it starts anew. 

I promise no tomorrow, 

But today will always last, 

And since each day’s the same way, 

There’s no longing for the past. 

You have been so faithful, 

So trusting and so true.

Though there were times

You did some things

You knew you shouldn’t do.

But you have been forgiven

And now at last you’re free.

So won’t you come and take my hand

And share my life with me?” 

So when tomorrow starts without me, 

Don’t think we’re far apart, 

For every time you think of me, 

I’m right here, in your heart. 

After you read this if you feel like it let me know how much she meant to you.